Okay. So today is Wednesday January 27, 2010. I know I ranted a few days ago about things all changing at once but this is ridiculous although I'm feeling less stressed because I think its finally sunk into my stubborn-never-do-anything-different-or-modify-things-in-an-way-shape-or-form head that nothing is the same, and that's okay. Can anyone out there tell me if something has caused this? Some MOON thing or the tides - or is this the year of the chicken or duck or something? Because it seems like a lifetime ago that things were normal and it's only been a few weeks. And if I could just get an hour at the keyboard to myself then I might be able to retain my sanity because there are four days left in this FORSAKEN MONTH and what else could possibly happen? Because I knew that things would change... but all in a span of four weeks? Here is the run down and I apologize for the repetition:
- I stopped eating dairy and eggs. I thought I'd try this because Will can't eat dairy or eggs and I wanted to see what would happen. Well, its not that bad, but with the unexpected super fast loss of 5 pounds, one has to worry about what I've done to my body thus far AND none of my clothes fit me -- I'm wearing a bag right now... with a nice belt.
- The 5 pound loss could also be attributed to the change in dinner routine where we actually sit down by FIVE THIRTY PM as a family to eat instead of waiting for Will to go to bed and then make dinner by - oh 10:00.
- We started working on THE HOUSE. Which is great but now I'm obsessed with decor and finding it hard to concentrate on most other things including WORK.
- Not concentrating on work is okay since I am a killer procrastinator and started another blog AND was just relieved of my office lease-- which I had another 6 months on. So now I can run free through the meadow in my bag and nice belt, finally CLOSE THE COMPANY and become an Independent Creative Consultant (again).
- Closing the company is actually a huge relief because its been the bane of my existence since co-founding it with that
boobhalf-wit of an ex-business partner. Then there were those people at that magazine which made life just so unnecessarily annoying. Then there were all those other clients that couldn't/wouldn't pay for requested work and others that stole design ideas and found cheaper firms to produce. And then let us not forget the disgruntled employees, disappearing programmers and the freelancers that borrowed things from the office. I did, however, have the opportunity to work on amazing projects with a few amazing people -- but once the economy stopped cooperating and throwing money at us, the daily stress of operation was overwhelming. - Being an Independent (again) is also a good thing because the nap that moved from the morning to afternoon two weeks ago is now OVER. As I just now say "go lay down" again to the head peeking around the corner as I type this as fast as possible. Because this morning he jumped out of his crib at 6 am. It scared all of us but I got him to lay down again -- only to have him acrobatically leap out again with the grace of a gazelle and land on his feet less than five minutes later. And, after modifying his crib so that he won't break his neck, nap time has turned into a game of "see how many times Mom will tell me to go lay down before she admits that this isn't working and the nap is over". Bedtime will be interesting.
- I suppose this game of not napping isn't as bad as the DON'T SAY THAT game where he says "f'ing idiot" and I say "DON'T say that" which only results in him saying it like 18 more times with a huge smile on his face. I'm so looking forward to him starting preschool next week so that he can play this with a complete stranger that won't judge me AT ALL. Then there's the whole potty thing which he decided he wanted to try. Damn this PARENT THING IS HARD. And now he's in the hallway rocking chair singing it with pride.
I will gladly go lay down. Just say the word. Also you must love me because your son and I have a similar potty mouth!
After I read that I think I want to go lay down!
Breathe, you'll get sanity back soon. And later you'll just laugh at the insanity - or better, forget it ever happened. Drinking helps with the forgetting part.
I'm sending you a hug, because I think you need one :)
I feel all swirly and confused. That is just too much stuff at once. You can feel free to have a major meltdown now. I think you should go to Native American Dorian Grey for counsel (provided you didn't paint over her yet).
If you need a good diversionary tactic for preschool make sure to mention offhandedly that some demented heathen blurted out the "f" word at the playground and forever changed the course of history. His name was...Il Duce. Someone stole his moon sand shovel last week and he called them a F'er. Nice. I'm sending him to Full Metal Jacket academy.
I am feeling just as overwhelmed as you (maybe it IS the moon?), but not nearly so succinctly that I could actually list it with numbers. Mine is just too jumbled a crazy mess. But it does have something to do with too many freelance projects and a 1-year-old who's lost all semblance of a nap schedule. In those areas, we are much the same.
And I apparently have the flu.
PiITY PARTY!!!! ROCK ON!!!! Where's the kegger.
It's Mercury coming out of retrograde. Things are about to get better. Trust the Libra.
Now where did I put my patchouli?
Have you tried my duct tape trick? Not only does it help keep the diapers on it also helps keep child firmly affixed to any surface...
Things will get better. I'm finally at the point where I can actually leave my two alone. In a room. Together. Without bloodshed and intestines strewn around.
What is it they say? Oh yeah, "silence is golden, duct tape is silver". I'm just about to go hide under the blankie myself. Elly, I hope you're right about Mercury because I still need to go through a time consuming ritual to bury that monkey. Need to be in top form for that.
I wish someone would make me go lay down. I would love that.
Wow, deja vu this is me right now too...I hope the magazine wasn't canvas :)
but of course not!